Current Anxieties

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  • Nobody likes me.
  • Am I alone because I hate everyone or because everyone hates me?
  • I should be working out.
  • I wish my clothes size was smaller.
  • I wish my legs were thinner.
  • Do I really love what I’m studying?
  • My sister has a better life than me.
  • Why don’t I have friends?
  • What am I really doing with my life?
  • Why did I waste the last 5 years of my life?
  • What’s the point of anything?
  • How will I learn how to pay my bills?
  • I don’t want to crash the car when I drive.
  • Why do my cousins get a better life than me?
  • Why do I keep saying obvious and stupid things?
  • Why couldn’t I have been born [redacted]?
  • What if my phones dies while I’m in the middle of the city and I don’t have a portable charger on me?
  • I wish I was extroverted
  • “Tell me about yourself”
  • How do I talk to people?
  • How do I make new friends?
  • Why do I already have a white hair I’m only 18
  • What if I get too hot, too cold, too itchy, too uncomfortable, too revealing?
  • Will I be underdressed or overdressed?
  • Why am I wasting my time?
  • Doing things that don’t matter?

Goodbye, Things By Fumio Saski

Noticeable Quotes

“No matter how much we wish for something, overtime it becomes a normal part of our lives, and then a tired old item that bores us even though we did actually get our wish. And we end up being unhappy.”

 

“ You can’t predict your future feelings”

Can’t even predict your state of hunger.

No such thing as a lazy personality.

Anything can pretty much be changed smiling face with open mouth , just build it into habit.

When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” –Lao Tzu

Whatever you do will be insignificant but it is very important that you do it.” –Mahatma Gandhi 

The author often brings up Zen Meditation a sense of reinstalling your mind.
Minimalism reduce stress, which helps us eliminate the food and drink costs that had previously existed just for stress relief.
Around 50 seconds be able to leave with everything you want.
“The value of a man should be seen in what he gives and not in what he is able to receive.” Albert Einstein 
Think of yourself as just another human being   just like a duck or turtle that swims around in a pond living life.
“Science is beginning to show that doing something for another person might actually lead to happiness.”
“Trying to wash dishes that aren’t even dirty yet.”
Gokan no Ge , or the Five Reflections   Meal Reflection
“Letting go of what happiness should be”
Happiness depends on how you interpret it. Happiness isn’t something outside you; it’s within you. Happiness is always in your heart.
But I will now close my mouth, hoping that you will open yours. 
Minimalism is a method not a destination. 

4 Things I’m Cutting Out of My Life

  1. Tumblr. I’m not going to spend hours on there trying to maintain an “aesthetic blog”, my goal is to find a couple of posts to put in my queue, and let Tumblr post 1 post a day on my blog. I feel so much better now that I’ve started to use it less often.
  2. Friends that leave me on read/seen without any good reason, friends that don’t reach out to me ever. I don’t need all that negativity in my life. Haha who am I kidding though, if I don’t reach out first I’m pretty much a loner.
  3. Reducing my time on Twitter.
  4. Reducing my time on the Internet in general. To be honest, I spend a lot of time doing literally nothing on the Internet. I should try and use this time to do something productive instead.

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5 Reasons To Keep A Journal

  1. You will have a therapist/someone who will listen to you 24 hours a day, seven days a week – someone who will listen to all your problems without any negative consequences.
  2. You will have something to look back on and have a way to track your favourite (or hated) memories.
  3. You will have a place to clarify, organize, and visualize your thoughts instead of them jumbling around in your head and staying in the back of your mind for ages.
  4. You will get a chance to reflect on yourself and your life.
  5. One thought leads to another – and promotes creativity!

Happy journaling!

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Everyday

Recently, I’ve been feeling that life is starting to go by really fast, and as it does I find myself forgetting to take time to think about what I am grateful for.

I don’t live the greatest life, and my anxiety and negative thoughts tend to make me think negatively a lot of the time, but I have periods of time when I start looking up and things around me seem better. But there are people out there who are living in a worse situation so

Things I am Thankful For

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  1. Family and friends – Although I don’t have many close friends, I am thankful for the ones I do have (online and offline) and my amazing family members (especially my sister and little cousins who are like my brothers).
  2. Parents who sacrificed so much to ensure me and my sibling have a good life
  3. Food and Shelter
  4. Being able to afford post-secondary education
  5. Being alive in this time and age, where technology is so advanced
  6. Living where I live – FIRST world country, living in a city which is very close to the most popular city in the country, meaning I have access to many resources and place

The list goes on and on, but these are the most important ones I should mention. Taking the time to think about these things can really help put you in a better mindset.

4 Apps I Use to “Try” to Be Productive

Wunderlist

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My number one favourite to-do list app, and trust me, I have tried millions of other apps before deciding this one was the best one for me. It works on phones and on a web browser, and you can make different categories for you to-do lists. It even sends reminders. I use it to keep track of various things – school work, personal things, etc. Very useful app.

Strides

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Strides is a habit tracker that is also available on both mobile and web. I personally use it to remind myself to take medicine/vitamins, exercise, write in my journal, etc. It’s a great app, it shows a calendar view of how many times you followed your habit and since I love visualizing things, it’s great for me. It also has reminders.

Chime (iPhone Only)

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For someone like me who loses track of time very easily, this app is awesome. It plays a sound notification (which you can change) either every quarter hour, half hour, just before the hour, or on the hour. I don’t know why but it helps me stay in touch with reality and also be more productive.

Momento (iPhone Only)

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I don’t know if this app is still available because I haven’t updated it in years (oops), but it’s a journaling app that I like to use to jot down little things that happen during the day that are funny or that I don’t want to forget, then I can look back and remember things that I have probably forgotten about. I also write down my dreams here sometimes. It’s great when I don’t have a notebook to write in.

 

Day 11 – Favourite Mech Anime

Hands down,

Gundam 00!

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It was the first (and probably only) mech anime that I actually loved. It has great themes, characters, and great mech designs – which Gundam is obviously known for. I can’t say much about the anime without spoiling most of it (LOL), but if you’re reading this then you should definitely give it a try.

Another “mech” anime I liked was Neon Genesis Evangelion, but it focused more on the emotional aspects of anime rather than the fighting/physical parts, so I won’t count it here.