I felt like rambling today

Sometimes, I just wanna get out this place and go somewhere far away, somewhere where no one knows me, somewhere where I can start fresh.

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I sort of had this chance when I started going to university. I commute to school, to the “big city”. I thought making friends would be so much easier but boy, was I wrong. There are way too many people there and everyone seems to be caught up in their own things. What makes it worse is that many people are also commuting from different places, so the friends I do have, I can’t see them often or at all. Life is great, eh?

Wanderlust to me, and wanderlust to other people are very different. I can’t ever carry out my desire for travel because I feel stuck in this rut.
Losing friends -> anxiety. Can’t make friends because of anxiety? Don’t want to do things alone because I feel lonely because of anxiety. The friends I do have barely invite me places -> anxiety lvl up.

See that? It’s a vicious cycle and I don’t know how to break it. So, I just sit at home all day and hang out with my family. I mean, I don’t mind it but it does start to get lonely after a while.
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I have a “friend” (more like acquaintance, since we barely speak anymore) who came to my school all the way from Mexico to study here. She comes from a very rich family, has lots of friends all over the world, and is a very likeable and pretty person. When I first met her, I felt like it was too good to be true – that I was friends with her. Turns out she doesn’t need losers like me in her life anymore.
Since our summer break started two months ago, she has constantly been travelling with her sister/friends – Morocco, Portugal, different places in Mexico, etc. I start to feel jealous of her. I don’t understand how people get the opportunities to do things like these – maybe I am just a super unlucky person in general.

We started off at the same place in the beginning of our first year of university – we met at the same orientation. We are getting the same bachelor’s degree. However, just a few simple circumstances led us to different places at the end of the first year. She was living on residence of course, I lived at home and commuted to school. Result? She made best friends with people living in the same residence as her, as they were all international students, and she connected with them so it was easier. As for me, I couldn’t talk to and connect with many people, my interactions all felt forced, awkward, and painfully one-sided. After I felt into my downward spiral and didn’t go to school for almost a month, no one noticed, no one asked me how I was doing. When I came to school to write my exam, the “friends” I once knew walked right past me in a group like I never existed. Feels bad man.

 

I just wanted to rant about a bunch of things all at once. I feel better now that I’ve gotten it out.

Day 10 – Favourite Fighter Anime

Naruto

Naruto had some of the most iconic fights in the history of anime,  even though some parts of the anime were not as good as the manga in terms of animation, and it had too many fillers, this still counts. Since Naruto was one of my first long anime/manga series that I ever got into, a lot of these fights were really memorable for me.

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Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

This show was pretty much flawless, and so was the animation style. The way they fight with alchemy really caught my interest and makes it unique from other animes so it deserves a spot here as well.

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Day 9 – Best Anime Villain

Maybe not the absolute best anime villain, but it’s 2:00 a.m., my brain isn’t functioning, and I am behind schedule because of irl things zzz

Dio Brando

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Dio is the biggest douchebag you’ll ever see in an anime series and has no redeeming qualities whatsoever. However, he has glorious moves, fabulous fashion, what else could you ask for from an anime villain?

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He is aware of his beauty and he’s not afraid to show it. Although he did do some pretty horrible things that I absolutely do not condone… That’s what a villain is for, eh? I hate him so much, but that’s how you can tell he’s a good villain.

Day 8 – Favourite Anime Couple

I was supposed to post this yesterday…

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Naruto and Sasuke are both characters that have much in common, yet also have differences that contrast each other. Both of them grew up in the village of Konoha but lived different lives. Naruto is a bubbly character who always seeking the approval of other people in the village since he had no family of his own. Since he was a Jinchuuriki (had the Kyuubi nine tails fox sealed inside of him), he was shunned and feared by the village which led to isolation. Naruto did not have any friends in the village, and the only person he could turn to was his sensei, Iruka. Naruto decided that he would one day become Hokage so he could prove his worth to the entire village.

On the other hand, we have Sasuke. He was the complete opposite of Naruto – cold, aloof, independent. He was seen by everyone as a genius, but similarly to Naruto, he grew up an orphan as well after the massacre of his entire clan. After the massacre, he decided that he would avenge the deaths of his clan and kill a certain man who caused all of this to happen. Even though Sasuke had attention and popularity from other people in the village, he chose to live a life of isolation and go on a path of darkness.

Naruto and Sasuke meet when they are put together on a team at the Ninja Academy called Team 7 with another student named Sakura. When they first meet, they have an accidental kiss in the classroom, which they both find disgusting. They basically decide at this point that they are rivals.

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They constantly argue about everything, meanwhile Sakura either tries to stop them, calls Naruto an idiot, or swoons over Sasuke like most of the girls in the academy. Sakura is so caught up in Sasuke and notices how they have a rival thing going on, so she belittles Naruto and picks on him for the fact that he has no parents. Sasuke comes to his defense and Sakura is shocked.

Later on, the team of young ninjas passes Kakashi’s test at the academy. As the series goes on, Sasuke starts to see Naruto as an equal and as a comrade that he respects. During their very first fight in the real world, Sasuke comes to Naruto’s defense once again – this time, by sacrificing his life for him, even though it would mean giving up on his sweet dream for revenge against his late clan.

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Naruto is put into shock, and as he experiences mixed feelings of anger, hate, sadness, he awakens his Kyuubi for the first time. They start to grow closer as equals, and Naruto starts seeing Sasuke as an equal as well, rather than someone he should envy because of his strong skills. At the preliminaries, Naruto cheers Sasuke on, and supports him through whatever may come. Sasuke risks his life again during his fight with Gaara, because he doesn’t want Naruto or Sakura to be hurt. At this point, Naruto realizes what he has been looking for his whole life – someone he loves who he could fight for and protect.

Sasuke tries to protect Naruto from his older brother Itachi, but fails to do so, which leads to downs in their friendship. After the encounter with Itachi, Sasuke realizes that he is still weak. He also realizes that his strongest ninjutsu, Chidori, was nowhere even near Naruto’s ninjutsu, Rasengan. He comes to a conclusion that Konoha is not the right place for him to be, and decides to set out on a journey, leaving Naruto behind.

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Many many things happen from then on, which if I described in this post, it would turn into a 5k word essay (seriously, I don’t want to go there); but in the end, Naruto chased Sasuke into the darkness, saved him from himself, and truly reminded him of what was important in life.

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Naruto and Sasuke are the sun and the moon, which cannot exist without the other.

Day 7 – Your Anime Crush(es)

Ugh, these prompts are so hard because I can’t narrow down my favourites into a single anime/character. Why, 30 day anime challenge? Why must you do this to me?

Let’s start off with my childhood anime crush.

Syaoran Li

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Little old me used to think he was the cutest thing ever. He’s basically your typical tsundere character, except a hundred times dorkier. The way he acted around Sakura and cared for her was really sweet. In the beginning of the series, he was very fiery and __ but as the show progressed, he started acting more calm and mellow.

Gintoki 

He’s not my childhood anime crush but he deserves a special spot here. I don’t even think I need to explain this one. Read this post to find out more.

And now? I’m going to judge strictly based on looks because my brain isn’t working right now.

Warning: picture spam ahead.

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Day 6 – Anime You Want to See But Haven’t Yet

I’m going to name three instead of just one.

Samurai Champloo

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The music and art style are both sensational. Nujabes, Fat Jon? Sign me the fuck up. I’ve heard many great things about this anime from various people, and it’s pretty high on my PTW list. The characters all seem really badass, and cute at the same time. (How is that even possible?!)

Steins;Gate

Most of my close friends have seen this anime and recommended it to me. They said it’s pretty confusing, apparently, but you have to pay attention to the details and everything makes sense later. I’m just dreading watching the first ten episodes which I’ve heard are very slow. (10 episodes are better than the first 25 episodes of Gintama though, I assume)

Serial Experiments Lain

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Serial Experiments Lain is known as one of the classics of psychological anime, which I happen to love. Not much to say here, but I’m expecting an identity crisis some time while watching this anime.

Day 5 – Anime You’re Ashamed You Enjoyed

I don’t think there’s any anime that I’m ashamed of enjoying. Most of the friends I have like anime as well, so it’s not hard for me to bring up my opinions about various anime I like and dislike. If I had to pick one though…

Clannad (After Story)

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It’s not really something to be ashamed of, but most people make fun of this anime for some reason, and turn it into memes so I don’t really like publicly acknowledging the fact that I actually enjoyed (and cried while) watching it.

At first I told myself I was never going to watch it because the art style was atrocious, but I gave it a try and ended up enjoying (most of) it. Season 2 was better than the first season, hands down.

Short post because I’m running short on time right now, might double post tonight.